Couple of days ago, I typed a whole chuck of something. I was having the very urge to spill it all out and I did it, but.. The blogger decided to just play play and there literally goes my...... expression.

I of course couldnt remember word for word, whichever I may spill, but here and there its still floating in my mind. .

I was saying that it seems to be like a "pattern" where I typed in brief to just summrized what I've done over the week. . which of course I will forget what I've done later..

anyway how time flew by, its been a month over at my new work place. I am still adapting, making sales, making calls, like a ever routine for a salesperson.

I dont know if I'd a problem or what, I just cant go too deep with my colleagues. I mean.. they girls are very involved. but im not. I feel outta circle. I dont feel like im very welcome. maybe thats not what it is. but i feel very... suffocated. i am so not me. those who know me will know im a very noisy and alive person but at work i seems to have toned down to a.... another quieter person. when lunch I can see them being together, i am also with them but I feel so... pangseh. If I can find a better word I will. still, I laugh like it is, eat like it is and hang like it is. Truth is i cant wait to just end the lunch time.... it is to this extent.

Maybe ive learned not to be so KPO, or noisy or ask question or this or that. I dont know it just came to me.

sigh, I missed lunching/working with shirui & yanhan. they never fail to make the lunch so enjoyable, so relaxing and so myself.

:(